kampung life?

i miss blogging... i miss posting my poems and my stories.... i miss talking crap.. i miss talking bout what'z wrong.... i miss talking bout what'z rite(if there were anythin write)....

i hate being a fatass... i miss being diz suckish.... i mizz him =[... reli do.... honestly.... i seriously dunno whether he misses me too...... he say's so.... but yet again... he makes me depressed by juz bailing on me yesterday.... i was seriously humiliated and not to mention devastated..... i was reli lookin forward to meeting him after such a long time..... his soft palm.... so nice to hold..... he's so tall! his cute nose(dunno why i like his nose... lolx) but i know dat he isnt the BEST lookin guy.... but he IS the best compared to all the guy'z ive liked.....it was kinda hard coz even mark was like that(mark ab... not marc[he is a total ass])........ he said that day that we could remain as bff's... but i dont believe in having any.... so i juz said yes to please him.... i dont wanna hav a bff... its too damn saddening.... scared of losing them...... so he's my fren who is damn freakin cool,fun,smart(but extremely lazy), hawt and......... blablabla.... lol....

i dunno whats goin wif my fly.... seriously laa...... got major yelling from dad that day..... coz was on the fon one day... til freakin 3 am( i tink)..... wif who? sundeep laa..... after he told nile bout wat she told me not to tell him, i stopped talking to him...... i tink mayb i misjudged him..... either that.... or he's juz caught up in his own lies..... idc lar...... he wanna lie... go lie..... after he told nile, she im'd me...... my pm said 'if im a bitch, tell me.. if im a goody-two-shoe... tell me... if im annoying... tell me'.... she said i was a bitch! so i was like.. wth... she was like.... dont try to act la gurl.... and i was like.... ?????? i hav absolutely no idea what ur talking abt.... .. then she was like... i know you told sundeep bout wat i told u not to tell him... he told me dat u told him... and i was like.. watta heck? you think i would tell him? do you know that ur my senior... and im actually afraid of you? yea its kinda lame and reli ambarassing to admit but its true... so why should i tell him?..... then she was like...... oh.. i didnt know that....

seriously la... im not gonna talk to him anymore... O_O

i hate home.... the atmosphere is so weird..... mama has her mood swings.... and papa... no comments.... and MIKHAIL! GOSH.... he's like a replica of pa.... he doesnt realize but damn is it true... well... sooner or later he'll hav to accept that fact... and LIVE with it.... im actually typing with my eyes shut!!! woah.... lol... the advantages of chatting online.... YOU LEARN HOW TO TYPE..... hehehehe.....JUST DOWNLOADED SO MANY NEW SONGS! heheheheh....... my fon has over 220 songz and 350 pix now.. hehehehe... thank god for 2gig memory cards... hehehe....

i still l..... i cant stop l.... its hard to stop...... always tink bout s...... its saddening... i was emoing the whole day today...... seriously... i only ate lunch properly.. i only had 2 small pieces of popiah and 2 cadbury choc biscuits for dinner.... didnt bother having breakfast..... haizzz...... all i wanna do is drink h2o and DIE.....i cant bare it...... i miss taking pix... i miss the environment..... i miss taking pix of the environment... i miss digital macro...... I CANT STAND IT.... WE HAV TO GO SOMEWHERE THIS COMING HOLIDAYS..... OTHERWISE.. ILL LITERALLY DIEEEEE......