FRASERS HILL 09/ 1 week of holz

FRASERS HILL
- quite a serene place

- uniquely interesting and peaceful(good place for a runaway destination wif your bf)
- very VERY photogenic

- extremely serene

- quite pleasant

CONCLUSION: I LOVE FRASERS HILL BUT I DONT LOVE FRASERS HILL

hahahahahaha....

i actually went out 3 times in a week! once by myself(ppl suspposed to come but had to cancel last minute coz of probz) so i went bezerk and shopped... lol... im officially broke(not exactly but technicly)..... the other time with mia,enbah and j........ we watched g.i. joe.... but i ended up watching only half of it.... muahahahahaha!!!...... but damn did dat day rawk.... i had so much of fun crapping wif mia and enbah..... enbah looks so cute in a dress!!! =D... lol... and the last time was yesterday.. =]... with s.... =].... damn is he a gentleman..... i loved it!!! i was like a freakin princess... thats the first time a guy's treated me like that.... he actually wore a shirt!! lol... cuteness personified laa..... we actually watched up! hahahahaha what a joke rite.. lol.. at the end of it the movie, his fren came to pick him up... he introduced me to his bff! waaa... lol.... his fren actually thought i was 19! cool =D.... im officially natasha~19~done my a-levels~looking into photography~......... lol now that was a total hoot.... i kept givin s stares the whole time... lol... he kept wanting me to come closer to him =]... every time i walked alone and wasnt holding his hand, he would come and grab my hand and look into my eyes.... s looks wayy better in reality than he does in his pix.... he needs a lesson on taking photo's.. lol.. he juz discovered the secret to taking perfect portraits..... TAKING THEM FROM THE TOP.... hahahaha.. whatttttt a discovery laa... he kept asking his fren, 'so what do you think of my girl?'.... i kept hehe'ing on the inside.... so lame rite... i behaved like a total ass..... i was acting like such a monkey!!! haizz.... no comments.. lol..

ive discovered a new oil thingy for my hair.... it prevents my hair from falling and makes my hair more shiny and glossy and not so dry..... its called... TENTENTEN.... ELLIPS... or however you spell it laa.. lol... but damn does it work... my hair looks A LIL BETTER THAN ITS FLUFFY SELF now... hahaha....

gotta go do my history notes otherwise ill be dead.... ill be skinned and hung on the top of block kesidang by my hair and left there in the heat for my fat to melt and drip down.......... lol.. that sounded even more gruesome than usual... lolx..... gotta go print pix of taj mahal and the red fort....

lost love

he was extremely angry with me.....wanted to meet me..... but couldnt coz he was workin and dat his fon was cacated and couldnt lemme know coz he couldnt call..... i dunno laa.... i tink im seriously gonna break up..... im fed up... but i cant.... its stupid... but hard to explain.... its understandable yet its extremely stupid..... i cant define my words... cant explain my feelings.... cant control the contentment... shit laa.... i gotta get out of this mess..... i think i gotta go bak.... gotta giv it a shot.... coz it wasnt my fault... it wasnt anyone's fault actually.... it juz happened and it was done.... no turning bak... no contact for 2 years..... the feeling was stuck so deep in me..... i couldnt help but cry my eyes out for at least a few months..... damn is it hard to forget.... its an extremely hard task to be accomplished.... the best way is to just erase all the sweet memories eventhough you dont want to and eventhough they're stuck in your brain for good......thank god for that method...coz then after a few months i felt better and (not all but fairly enough)all was forgotten.... but now..... everything's coming back to me..... i cant believe this laa....

THINGS TO DO:

+ clean room
+ hang huge mirror
+ get papers signed
+ do my history notes
+ start reading biology
+ wash my clothes
+ iron my uniforms
+ REMEMBER THAT IM SUPPOSED TO BE PUASA'ING
+ stop thinking about the past and move on
+ start GROWING UP!!

my holidays suck.... there's a LOT of things to do... but none of them are fun... none of them rock... well, at least i get to go shopping and blow all of my money.... hehehehe.... i just cant stand it... i go crazy every time im stressed.... i thought of baking just now... but then i decided that i need to prioritise my activities... so i decided to clean first.. but here i am... blogging my ass off... hehehe.....

ive realized that im fat ass hell.... ive realized that i can dance.... ive realized that i can sing.... ive realized that i can draw.... ive realized that i can write stories(if im in the mood)..... ive realized that i can write(not good but readable) poems..... ive realized that im obsessed with music..... ive realized that my sense of style has evolved(still emo but instead of wearing only black jeans and a tee, ive started wearing dresses with tee's and my sneakers =D) hehehehe.....

IN CONCLUSION, TASHA IS OFFICIALLY WEIRD AND NOT TO MENTION MAD AND ALSO DELUSIONAL!! =D

I HAVE MADE CONTACT WITH A MARTIAN WHO IS KNOWN AS KERRISSA SEELAN!!!>.. WHEEEE... =P

LOVE... HATE

love can be sweet

it makes jump and cheer

you say that you wanna meet

but you dont appear

love can be bitter
when u hang with a ditter
who say things that are ever so bitter
she just brags and craps
the crap she says stays in your head
and in the end you lose yourself and fade

looking back on where we were

we were so in love

till you couldnt breathe

neither could i move

then one fine day

you just stopped to care

not a single sentence

or a game of 'dare'

cant believe what's happened

this is so unfair

i knew my love for you would grow
after all thats happened i still love you so
my love so strong
that the thought of you
makes me glow
so please dont leave me
dont go

i still love you

i cant deny it

but yet i hate you

just cant bare it

I MISS KERRI!!! ='[

KERRISSA SEELAN!
WHERE HAV YOU BEEN?

ARE YOU IN LONDON?

VISITING THE QUEEN?

KERRISSA SEELAN

I LOVE YOUR HAIR!

I JUST WANNA CUT IT OFF

AND GIVE YOU A LONG STARE!

lol... seriously tau... mish her laa... mish talkin crap wif her... its ok... she has gotta go study... examz are around the corner... so, after her exams and after mine we can go TAKE OVER THE UNIVERSE!!! MUAHAHAHAHA... =P......

hehehehee... didnt go to skul.... you know why? coz i am not well.... im havin terrible headaches.... my whole body is aching like hell..... im startin to get a cold and not to mention a cough.... heck... i hate being sick during the holz..... haiz.... damn got dance clazz today.... haizz.... i lurve to dance.. but some ppl take it toooo seriously.... ='[..... oh yaaa guess wat? i saw janaa at tfa!!! i had no idea she studied there.... she's doink kattaq,playin the sita and singin!!!!.. waaaa... terror laa she... hahahaha.....

i cant cant be bothered to paint my nails laaa.... too damn lazy and at the same time, i cant b bothered to clean them in a weeks time... so mayb ill go and do a pedicure or maybe even a manicure.. hehehehe..... but i first gotta finish my sejarah work.. damn... muz do the history project too... dammit.... ='[

haizzz..... newayz i tink im gonna watch a movie now.... chaozzz.....

hhmm.... new?

wheeeee.... i edited my blog.... it doesnt look that bad arr... not bad la i.. hahaha.... im gonna reach places!! you know why? coz im finally pulling all the courage i have from my damn brain out and doing sumtin wif it! lol...

i seriously cant wait for sat..... cant wait to see..... cant wait to feel... cant wait to hear.... cant wait to have fun teasing! lol.... but then again... i dunno if he'll come.... i am doubting it laa... but still... there is a lil hope rite....

i sooooo wanna take part in a photography competition... but im too young... and at the same time.... most of these kinda competitions require an entrance fee.... and i also wanna go for vocal trainin classes..... but the ting is, klpac doesnt hav any weekly classes.. they only have courses..... haizz.... i was actually also thinkin of taking acting classes.... actually to tell you the truth, ive alwayz wanted to act... and damn.... i act every single day... dont we all?

i miss talking to mia and enbah..... my momma and my sayang... lol....

ive made a conclusion that im actually one very artsy person.... im more artsy than most of my friends.... haizz..... sadness personified.... and at the same time i feel like im the weird one.... they are all so damn smart and im the damn gurl who cant be bothered to think of add maths.... but i wanna learn bio chem and phy... i actually like all three subz.... and i also loveeee poems and stuff with a high level of english.... i find them interestingly complicating and fascinating...... hahahaha....

i dont know how emo i am... and ive realized that im beginning to change... i wanna wear more black dresses and black heels now.... not your usual black pants and black tee... but i still love all my tee's.... but i want to wear more dresses... but the thing is,.... you can only get those reliiii hot dresses at forever 21... and i havent seen it anywhere except in 1U.... and we hardly go there nowadays... now we go to the curve more often..... haizz.. i miss 1U....

im debating wif my conscience on whether i should go to skul tomorrow.. haizz.. fed up of skul... juz wanna go lepak oni... mayb i can make a deal wif mik.... lol... =P

i SOOOO doubt so laa... it'll NEVAA happen... haizz.. newayz....
gonbanwaa.....

the moment i layed eyes on you....
i felt like soaring through the sky so blue

a rush of exitement crept upon me....

as i finally realized i was free

we stayed on together
throughout all this time
i know that we can make this better
but then again it may be a crime

you are so sweet..so good... so cute

i just cant believe that this is true

of coarse i cannot deny my love for you

but i wonder whether you love for me is true.....

my birthday rocked and at the same time it sucked as hell.... the first 4 periods were free periods... we juz did our hw and talkd and nothin else... lol... then afta dat i stayed bak for the sidang meeting and afta dat i went bak... ma picked me and we went bought my cake... then went bak and smsed and all... i wore my dress =D... i LOVE my dress but the ting is... its a lil lose laa.... near the top area... haha... if u noe wat i mean.... =P.... then we went to the pavilion coz i wanted to go walk on bintang walk and go to planet hollywood.... but then it started to rain.... haizz... so then we ate inside and went bak... so many ppl wished me.... but he didnt... ='[... but i know why he didnt.. hiz fon ar.. seriously.... i was like seriously emo that night.. even today.... so damn emo... he smsed yesterday and he even talkd to narash bout me and all... narash told me dat he reli RELI wanted to talk and sms me... so i topped up 5 for him... then i called him.... he sounded so damn sweet! seriously extremely sweet laa... hehehehe..... seriously miss him laa... hhmm... may be goin out wif him on sat!!!! actually wanted it to be on a sun but cant laa.. ='[ got dance rehersal... huhuhuhu... ='[... so wat to do.... sat lorr... idc la... i juz wanna c him...

have i ever said that life is full of suprises and not to mention that life is extremely weird and inpredictable? thats the thing i hate about it... why cant life juz be perfect like in movies.... haiz.. yea... i know its utterly useless to want a perfect life when its reli obvious that there is no such thing as a perfect life.... there even isnt such a thing as a partially perfect life.....

LURVE YOU GUYZZZZZZZZ =]

when i say jump you say how high

now youve never seen no body ever hit so high

like a bird like a plane

this partay is insane
this party is insane

so JUMP JUMP JUMPP!!!

damn im like... i LURVE wif diz song..... haizzz..... its like.. freakin cool la whey... damn...
240+350+200=790
OMG..... IVE GOT THAT MUCH ALREADY!!!! heheheheheee... emagine how much ill get if i plus gma'z monay and(hopefully) pa's monay..... DAMNNN...... IM HALFWAY THROUGH!!!.....haaaa.... relief.. but im surely gonna use at least 100 for shoppin... mayb buy a new dress or sumtin.... juz GOTTA get sumtin... hehehe... but NOT on shoes... to many shoes redi.. lol.... IM SO FREAKIN SADD!!!! my black ipanema's LOST!!! i hav ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how it disappeared.... its like it evaporated into thin air or sumtin like dat...

OMG.... ms. m is OFICIALLY INSANE..... she actually got angry wif sum of the gurlz coz they didnt bring her pix(of masjid cordova and andalusia).... so she gave them an assignment.... they had to do a one page on either one of those places(yes.... only one page!).....so the next week when sakz passed them up, she started to go through them one by one la.... so then she started nagging and shouting..... she scholded puva coz she did only 1 quater a page! now ya... dat is a lil over laa.... so then she got it laa... she started to cry and all.. so then, after all the shouting and all.. ms. m asked puva to go sit outside of the class.... puva actually stampped her feet and slightly bangged her book against the wooden table... thats when ms. m lost it la.... she was gonna slap puva! and puva actually had the nerve to say 'ini diri saya...'...... ms. m said 'who d heck do you think you are huh!!?!?!?!?!'... damn laa.. then she asked puva to go call her mom..... ms m juz threw her book and said that she wasnt gonna teach.... i tink she realized that we were innocent and we had to suffer learning that whole sub chap all by ourselves coz of puva... so she lectured us and then started to teach... after a few minutes she warmed up and thank god she became better.... haizzz... damn freakin scary whey... that's the first time ive seen puva lose it..... eventhough it was ever so slightly.. the fact that she actually LOST it... woah.... even i havent done that b4... all i do is juz nod and say im sorry teacher... ill do it and pass it in by tomorrow... lol....

today wasnt that bad.... i felt like fainiting at one point... dnno why... i tink coz i didnt hav anymore h2o... lol.... chemistry... yesterday..... TEACHER WAS IN AN EXTREMELY BADDDD MOOD... she too was shouting at us... damn laa.. why are all ther teachers shouting at us... haizzz... watever laaa..... lol... i wanna take pix... damn i gotta go fold clothes... haizzz.... havent finished so much yet... ='[
HAIZZZ.....

kampung life?

i miss blogging... i miss posting my poems and my stories.... i miss talking crap.. i miss talking bout what'z wrong.... i miss talking bout what'z rite(if there were anythin write)....

i hate being a fatass... i miss being diz suckish.... i mizz him =[... reli do.... honestly.... i seriously dunno whether he misses me too...... he say's so.... but yet again... he makes me depressed by juz bailing on me yesterday.... i was seriously humiliated and not to mention devastated..... i was reli lookin forward to meeting him after such a long time..... his soft palm.... so nice to hold..... he's so tall! his cute nose(dunno why i like his nose... lolx) but i know dat he isnt the BEST lookin guy.... but he IS the best compared to all the guy'z ive liked.....it was kinda hard coz even mark was like that(mark ab... not marc[he is a total ass])........ he said that day that we could remain as bff's... but i dont believe in having any.... so i juz said yes to please him.... i dont wanna hav a bff... its too damn saddening.... scared of losing them...... so he's my fren who is damn freakin cool,fun,smart(but extremely lazy), hawt and......... blablabla.... lol....

i dunno whats goin wif my fly.... seriously laa...... got major yelling from dad that day..... coz was on the fon one day... til freakin 3 am( i tink)..... wif who? sundeep laa..... after he told nile bout wat she told me not to tell him, i stopped talking to him...... i tink mayb i misjudged him..... either that.... or he's juz caught up in his own lies..... idc lar...... he wanna lie... go lie..... after he told nile, she im'd me...... my pm said 'if im a bitch, tell me.. if im a goody-two-shoe... tell me... if im annoying... tell me'.... she said i was a bitch! so i was like.. wth... she was like.... dont try to act la gurl.... and i was like.... ?????? i hav absolutely no idea what ur talking abt.... .. then she was like... i know you told sundeep bout wat i told u not to tell him... he told me dat u told him... and i was like.. watta heck? you think i would tell him? do you know that ur my senior... and im actually afraid of you? yea its kinda lame and reli ambarassing to admit but its true... so why should i tell him?..... then she was like...... oh.. i didnt know that....

seriously la... im not gonna talk to him anymore... O_O

i hate home.... the atmosphere is so weird..... mama has her mood swings.... and papa... no comments.... and MIKHAIL! GOSH.... he's like a replica of pa.... he doesnt realize but damn is it true... well... sooner or later he'll hav to accept that fact... and LIVE with it.... im actually typing with my eyes shut!!! woah.... lol... the advantages of chatting online.... YOU LEARN HOW TO TYPE..... hehehehe.....JUST DOWNLOADED SO MANY NEW SONGS! heheheheh....... my fon has over 220 songz and 350 pix now.. hehehehe... thank god for 2gig memory cards... hehehe....

i still l..... i cant stop l.... its hard to stop...... always tink bout s...... its saddening... i was emoing the whole day today...... seriously... i only ate lunch properly.. i only had 2 small pieces of popiah and 2 cadbury choc biscuits for dinner.... didnt bother having breakfast..... haizzz...... all i wanna do is drink h2o and DIE.....i cant bare it...... i miss taking pix... i miss the environment..... i miss taking pix of the environment... i miss digital macro...... I CANT STAND IT.... WE HAV TO GO SOMEWHERE THIS COMING HOLIDAYS..... OTHERWISE.. ILL LITERALLY DIEEEEE......