holidayz 09

i cant believe it.... ur just like the rest.... u just...stole my heart and left me soulless... while i sat on my bed... literally dumbfounded and with nothing better to do.... i couldnt believe my ears... my brain actually shut down for 3 minutes(yes i counted)... i just couldnt believe i fell for a guy that fast and i actually let him make me fall for him.... im so damn stupid....

im thinkin whether i should become a player or be a lesbo.... mayb a lesbo la.... or a player... but im neither.... haiz.... life's confusing and sick and sad and depressing and painful and........ watever else that describes negative feelings.....i tink ill become a bi... lolxlolx

i hate school... literally... theyre havin dis damn meeting on friday... my damn plan is RUINED I TELL YOU RUINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....bladi mama's fish.... they shud jus go suck ppls rambutans.....

im a single gal lookin to hav loads of FUN.... SHOPPIN.... DUDES....HERE I COME!!!!! hehehehehehe.....

let go...

i feel like writing songs.... tonnes of them... but the ting is... i dont hav that many words to say... i have feelings... but all those feelings are just locked up in my heart and they just cant seem to escape and they just cant be described....

i like you... i may even love you... but what do i know... i am just only 16... i dont really know the actual meaning of the word... i say it... i think i feel it too... but i am kinda scared to say it sometimes... im scared that i will hurt him if i say it too often... but seriously... dis guy rawkz... we like d same things... but i wonder if we hav d same character... i dunno whether he understands me... i duno whether i understand him... i sooo wanna understand him... but i know wat he wants.... i know partially wat he's like.... but still... its not enough.... i wanna know more... i wanna know wat he thinks.. how he thinks... everything... i dunno how to explain it... haiz... IM WEIRD ARENT I.... wtv la

freakin fed up of xamz.... damn freakin fed up u noe.... i cant bare it... i didnt study at all... juz cant be bothered.... decided to fail as many subs this term.. lolx.. weird rite... but i dont care... i know i can do it.. but i need 1 month... dis time i was sick 2 weeks b4 d xam.. how to study??? so i juz let it go... hehe...

im going

1ST VERSE
i hear ur breath
against my face
i touch ur chest
my heart starts to race

i know i screwed up
and now ur gone
when we broke up
i felt all alone

2ND VERSE
i cant bear
to see your tears
i just have
to face my fears

id do anything to keep you smiling
i cant bare to see ur frown
if it means i hav to giv up smiling
id do it just to see u happy

CHORUS
i never wanted to hurt you
id never do such a thing
but i knew we'd fall through
we just werent meant to be
although i still love you
i know i always will
but i have to do something
so here i am....im going