cant believe me anymore

im fed up...tired.... live... the worn out.... im fed up of the way i live... the things i do... why cant i be as good as you.... why cant i just be perfect... then mayb sum1 would appreciate me for who i am and not what i appear to be..... everyone missinterprets me for sum1 im not sumtimes.... im fed up and tired of it..... why cant life juz end so that i can rest in peace for eternity....

i hate it when they fight... why cant they juz seperate and get over wif it already...... thank god she doesnt complain that much anymore.... inlike the last time..... i actually asked her if they were gonna get a divorce!...... actually... frankly speaking.... i think they should.... i mean.... they are total opposites..... they like different things...... i think thats coz they both changed as the world evolved...... but im still me usual emoetic self..... i thought id become more of a pop person... but then i changed back... and im happy coz i know that i can at least cry and let my tears out.... coz sumhow..... they tend to take away the hate and sadness and not to mention the feeling of betrayal along with every single drop of H2O + salt.......

i miss you....... i wonder if youre even tinking bout me........ coz i know i tink bout u..... i know im extremely lame... but at least would you let me in on whats happenin every once in a while...... ive decided to ignore you....... im concidering myself single at this very moment.... but i juz cant..... i love that sensation..... that feeling of belongingness...... all i want is to belong..... to be liked.... to be appreciated....... to be held from time to time when im about to fall into a deep dark pit..... coz if i fall in there without sum1 to pick me up..... i may never ever get up......